Hello, Internet. To you wonderful Zero people that read my bloggity. Ha

Sooo, I met this girl at rehearsal. She's beautiful, and she sings,
dances, and acts. Pretty close to my dream girl.

Anyway, it turns out she actually thinks I'm attractive, both
physically and not. (I know, right? Thanks girls in my life for making
me have low self image and be surprised when someone actually thinks
I'm cute)

So, we get to know each other, and we actually start dating. (wow
someone not rejecting Nate for once) things seem to go well until a
day later when I get the dreaded question.

"are you Christian?" Being an atheist agnostic, I truthfully reply
that no I am not. She says the usual "oh I'm a good Christian and
supposed to date Christian guys" drivel. We talk it out with me
overreacting and expecting her to end it there.

So, a bump in the road.

So today, the second day, she sends me a text saying that actually she
isn't ready to kiss, although she had wanted to so badly previously. I
ask her why and it turns out her ex that she dated for nine months
that just happens to be Christian wants her back. She then promptly
dumps me and says that she's only known me for a couple weeks and him
forever and that they love each other, they really do.

Understandably frustrated, I ask her to just give me a chance, since
After Robin Hood ends we won't see each other much, if at all since
she lives in Tulsa. She says that if it doesn't work out again, she'll
give me another chance. I say that I'm aware but the chances of that
happening are slim to none before robin hood is over and she agrees.
She's still going to go to the movies with me on the 21st but idk what
to expect other than the fact that I will still have never made out
like we were planning to do beforehand at the movies.

She really is quite beautiful and amazing though.

I know it's petty but idgaf. Thank you, you nobody that reads this,
for reading.

Signing off,
Nate.

Thank you, girls i've known/girls in my life for shaping my self esteem so that when my close friend that's a girl says i'm hot/cute/whatever, i'm skeptical.

D:

Ironically, after posting a vaguely suicidal tweet on my twitter, a few days later, i get followed by Mental Health Social. :o

http://jeff-schomays-portfolio.com/ArtWork/SpaceAnimation.mp4

Hello, Interblag.

bonus points for anyone who got that reference.

anyway, life's been interesting. forrealz, yo.

We started actually playing DnD on saturday which was awesome.

ohh, and i got randomly drug tested in 6th hour today. it was intense. xD
but as i'm clean, i'm not worried. peeing in a cup ftw

so, i need to work on my social skills.
There was this cute girl flirting with me at guitar house today and i realized how bad i am in situations that spring out like these.


After reading the newest XKCD, I realized that not only is Randall once again reading my thoughts, but this comic embodies my thoughts with introducing myself to the wimmenz.

i do a risk benefit analysis, not necessarily a correct one, but nonetheless, and i tend to decide to not go for it.

you're a jerk.
I know.

umm.

that's all for now.

Hello, World.

I feel accomplished.
=D

I made my suicidal friend stable.
no names here. for him at least.


with the help of my dear friend whom i miss greatly, Elijuhhhhhh.

I got eli to call him, and because unnamed suicidal friend looks up to eli, eli helped him through it.

i mean really, yeah shit happens, but these things come and go. it's just a phase, although i hate to be clichè.


back in seventh grade..... yeah.

enough about that.

Onwards.

I gots a presentation due tomorrow in english. better get cracking.

My average cubing time is slowly drifting downwards, but my stickers are peeling. *grumble grumble*

I've introduced more of the world to the embodiment of amazingness that is Vitas, the diamond voice.


I will travel anywhere within the continental United States to see him. maybe even into canada

cuz he's freaking amazingggggggggg

I'm hopefully seeing straight no chaser in december which is awesomeeee.

i <3 them.

I've been in a crazy good mood lately, and i don't know why. it's inexplicable. approximately at the same time i realized i don't actually need a girl.

i mean, i'd certainly take one if the opportunity offered itself, but yeah.


I am freaking stoked about Into The Woods. I am totally going to audition for the wolf.


and that's about ittttt


tune in next week, same blog time, same blog channel.

Hello, internet.

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depression ++


haha.


anyway.

Today, I realized why I relate with Holden Caulfield from The Catcher in The Rye.
Why I like that book so much.


Ostracism.

:D

In addition to being the prompt for the essay in the lovely AP English III class I'm taking, It's happening right here, right now.

With more added flavor.

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anyway.

I digress.

Really Caitlin?

You're a bitch.

I'll admit I can be occasionally creepy, but your utter hatred of me has certainly been detrimental. I understanded Blake's siding with you when you two were dating, but it appears your hatred has spread.

I'm not even gonna try eating lunch with my old table even though Sean, Bill, sometimes Blake, and Michael, etc. are good friends.

I tried last year but it was easier to eat at my secondary lunch table comprised of mainly freshman, instead of listening to you yell at me.

But this year, As they were all freshman, I had to find a new lunch table.

Shelby and Alex ate lunch with me occasionally last year, and i'm friends with the rest, but i'm still an outsider.

I'm caught, ostracized between these two groups.

Willem, you're awesome, we're good friends, but you can be a total douche.
Oh look, my book's are falling out of my hands.

*makes drop*

thanks for the help



and although we have the same religious beliefs and ideologies, I'm way more open minded. Whether i agree with it or not, i could care less what other people believe.

Pixie, I don't know if you hate me or not, but i'd like to.

Whitfield, you and your swoopy hair are awesome, and although it saddens me slightly that we are no longer making videos together, i'm glad we're still friends.

Weddington ............

We have a love hate relationship.

usually hate.


Shelby Eaton, I don't really give a fuck what you call it, be it love, lust, or whatever.
It's unrequited, but you're still one of the most amazing people i know.
And you're not plain.




Crissie Burdell, I <3 you crazy much. You cheer me up so much when i'm down, and you're adorable with your 5 foot stature. You're an amazing actress, and I'm so glad we're such close friends, even though you're a sophomore in college and i'm still just a junior.


yeahhhhh

I'm'a go be emo in a corner now.

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